Fame

Fame


I shed my tears where none can see
A silent vigil, safe from me
Devoid of life
Devoid of pain
But in the end, everything remains the same

Underneath the neon glow, living in the limelight
The world will spin, And time will pass away
But the lustre fades, and the fame won't last
In another way, you know your time will pass
In this world of glass

I shed my tears where none can see
A silent vigil, safe from me
Devoid of life
Devoid of pain
I close my eyes and turn away
From the light at the centre of the stage
Back to the arms that hold me now so close
But in the end, everything remains the same

Travelling down this road alone, a solitary boundary
They scream and yell, But you know they'll never care
And the lustre fades, the dream won't last
Sleepin' alone, ignored, unloved, replaced
They'll never notice anyways

I shed my tears where none can see
A silent vigil, safe from me
Devoid of life
Devoid of pain
I close my eyes and turn away
From the light at the centre of the stage
Back to the arms that hold me now so close

I'm screaming so loud in my mind
But it's not like they care or even see what's inside
And it's not like they hear the things that you say
While they watch you slipping away

As the engine dulls and moans, so far away from home
As the roar of the crowd dies down and fades
Now the lustre's gone, and the time has come
Behind the wheel, ride towards the desert sun
Back to my only one

I shed my tears where none can see
A silent vigil, safe from me
Devoid of life
Devoid of pain
I close my eyes and turn away
From the light at the centre of the stage
Back to the arms that hold me now so close

I shed my tears where none can see
A silent vigil, safe from me
Devoid of life
Devoid of pain
But in the end, everything remains the same




~Damon

116dr neph, 1581hp, you'd never have guessed...

Your whip mauls Cyn!
Cyn is DEAD!!

An infernal pentagram glows briefly.
Splinters of oblivion and hellfire engulf Mezekht.
Your hellfire _traumatizes_ Mezekht!
Mezekht is DEAD!!

An infernal pentagram glows briefly.
Splinters of oblivion and hellfire engulf Myceran.
Your hellfire _traumatizes_ Myceran!
Myceran is DEAD!!


Nephs rock.

And yet again...

One more on Sunday.


Right. No doing anything potential detrimental to my health.

~Damon

one more...

Another interview tomorrow.




~Damon

whee....

Job interview today, I'm nervous as hell.



~Damon

Now and Then

As is customary by now, everytime I write a new song I post it here, so here it is:



Now and Then


I feel the blades while you're screaming at me
Again -
Reminding me of the way how things used to be
Hear all the pain and the loneliness inside
I won't try to run, no matter what I won't try to hide
As I lay me down to sleep
The only thing I feel is dreams
Reaching out while I slip and fade away
But I'm holding onto nothing, nothing at all

I feel the flames while you're glaring at me
Tonight -
Just like the way I remember of how things used to be
I'll stay by your side, watch your nails slash through my veins
If it tears me up, I'll survive, and I won't cry again
As I lay me down to sleep
The only thing I feel is dreams
Reaching out while I slip and fade away
But I'm holding onto nothing, nothing at all

Crawling now, my bones are bloody
Forever then, revealed in silence again
Behind this mask of content
Forget me now, And hate me when I'm gone
Remember then, no matter what I'll stay forever more
Now and then, I won't run and hide
Even while it tears me up inside

The pain is real, unforgiven I will remain
Again -
Tell me now what it is that you want me to be
Bear all I can, do you believe I love you now
Take all of me that you want and leave nothing to be seen
As I lay me down to sleep
The only thing I feel is dreams
Reaching out while I slip and fade away
But I'm holding onto nothing, nothing at all

Crawling now, my bones are bloody
Forever then, revealed in silence again
Behind this mask of content
Forget me now, And hate me when I'm gone
Remember then, no matter what I'll stay forever more
Now and then, I won't run and hide
Even while it tears me up inside

Now I'm falling away, I'm clinging to you
Need and want you to stay, when you're angry at me too
And I'm falling apart when you're not there

As I lay me down to sleep
The only thing I feel is dreams
Reaching out while I slip and fade away

Crawling now, my bones are bloody
Forever then, revealed in silence again
Behind this mask of content
Foret me now, and hate me when I'm gone
Remember then, I'll love you always and forever more
Would you care if I'm there or if I'm bleeding alone?
Now and then, I won't run and hide
Now and then, I will stay by your side
Tonight -
If I don't have you, I have nothing at all..





Nice and depressing. I love being ignored. Hate me, kiss me, kill me.


~Damon

This is how you remind me of what I really am

My wrist throbs. I almost feel like ripping it out. Yet, somehow, that seems like a bad idea. Why does my wrist throb? I don't know. Must've been something I did to it. It is not exactly thrilled with me anyways. All this typing, trying to get documents from people who aren't responsible enough to send files when they are needed, and all the while, I'm expected to work when I have not even been given the materials relevant to what is needed to be done in order to complete it. I am perfectly aware that you people hate me. Don't worry, the feeling is mutual. Watching the imps and demons totter by as I write this now. I don't know who set them free, could've been any number of people who were unaware of the consequences of their actions, or it could've been any number of people who are fully aware of the consequences of their actions. Furthermore, it could've been done by accident. Regardless, they're there and about. I won't try to send them back. They have done nothing that's caused me to want them gone.

Anime North coming up, people are so slow to respond to anything, anyways, we have pretty much enough people to do group registration so we'll see about any other late responses. Cosplay, whee. I'm aware that I'm a pain in the ass. I'll get the job done one way or the other. If it means that I have to be a pain in the ass to do it, then so be it. You people have your deadlines, and I have mine. I give plenty of time, and if you people aren't willing to be somewhat punctual, then I shall have to simply make due with what I have to work with. However, for those of you who are owing me documents, there is no excuse as I have been requesting those documents for 4 weeks and I haven't gotten a single one. So send me the fucking documents so I can do some work on them already.

Now then. Is that business out of the way? Perhaps.

Yes, my health is my own, and by that token, I am responsible to myself for whatever I bring onto myself. So I accept consequence for my own actions and take them as I see fit. Yell at me, scream at me, I bring it on myself. Every action has a reprecussion. Everything has a price. No action is not without it's own results, even if it isn't visible or noticeable in the immediate sense. Every scar, every scab, every time the salt is shaken. Every non-reaction has as much of a result as an action, those which are even less visible.

Maybe I'll write a full score tonight. We'll see. Cakewalk is a great program. Trying to write a background score for "Desert Rain". Working in reverse order, I'll go back and write scores for everything eventually. Right back at it.

Hrm...

Maybe I shouldn't let myself be left alone.

Oops

I'm somewhat mistaken. "Something's gotta give" isn't entirely accurate.

Something will give. It's simple as that.

Irate, I hate, you determine your own fate, now everything is caving in

2 assignments and 2 midterms, with family life as fucked up as it always is. Don't come to me crying about how I'm not your perfect son. Ever so much closer to the edge now.

Something's gotta give.