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Hey dad, look at me. Think back and talk to me, did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time, doing things I want to do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along. And now I tried hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud, but I'm never gonna be good enough for you. I can't pretend that I'm alright. And you can't change me, 'cause we've lost it all, nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. I try not to think about the pain I feel inside, did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spend with me, now seem so far away, and it feels like you don't care anymore. And now I try hard to make it, I just wanna make you proud, but I'm never gonna be good enough for you, I can't stand another fight. And nothing's alright, 'cause we've lost it all, nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Nothing's gonna change the things that you said. Nothing's gonna make this right again, please don't turn your back, I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you but you don't understand. 'Cause we've lost it all, nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late, and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. 'Cause we've lost it all, nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late, and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

Facing, coping and dealing huh? Nice lot of memories to have to go through. Nice in the "I don't want to but I'm doing this somehow for some reason or another". 2 major assignments and 2 exams to worry about on top of all that, as well as all the other problems that are normally present. So many things to have to deal with and worry about. The more I sit around doing the work I'm supposed to, the more things that come to mind, the more memories, thoughts and feelings. I'm going crazy in my mind, yet the crazier I get, the more alone I seem to become. This may or may not be the case, but the point still stands that it isn't particularly easy to deal with. Nonetheless, I survive. At least for now I do. So how have I been doing. Honestly? Not too hot. Downright freezing. The calm before the storm huh? Guess this storm will be pretty bad.